Building with blocks

[primsong]

The last few days have really been just like the ones preceding them, but they seem moreso. That is, I once again only longingly remember the days when I could have a block of time and have something to fill it with, instead of having a block of time and having to decide which of several things will be the lucky one this time to actually get done.

I feel as if I am forever mentally shoving and rearranging blocks of time in my head, laying at night when I should be going to sleep instead I am trying to figure out how the blocks will be arranged and apportioned the following day, and then what to do when I am partway into building my day's block-stack and someone hands me yet another item that needs to be done, but I don't have any more blocks....I have to get out my saw and cut one of my bigger blocks in half, round the corners off another to make it fit.

I would like a day where I can reach out and just swat down the block-pile, like my son does when he 'blows up' a block building!

I 'm sorry I can't even begin to go back and read all the tantalizingly interesting LJ entries all of you have left the last three days or so... I'm out of blocks.

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((((((Prim))))))

Yes, I know this feeling, very well. Your blocks are like my Ruling List of Doom... no veil between us and the list of things which must yet be done...

I trust this time will pass as it did for me -- not that it ever really passes, but you get times where there are no blocks and the list is quite short and manageable. One day you will lay down and realize that there is little to sort out in your mind, instead of sleeping, or you will wake up and discover you have ahead of you one of those days where it is YOUR day, and not someone else's. I'm praying such a day comes this week -- and if it doesn't come naturally, maybe you will have to make such a day for yourself, before you are so buried in blocks that you can't get out from under them except by drastic measures or by getting sick. A break from the blocks (or the list) -- no matter how big or how long -- really does help in getting your strength back. Sometimes the mental weariness is the worst, where you just can't figure out where to put the next block. That's when you have to take a break, even if you think there is no time to do so.

Thinking of you, my dear.