Too much of a good thing!

[primsong]

I don't normally use this for working out thoughts, but if you don't mind a ramble for a moment... For whatever reason (and I admit, I don't entirely understand it myself) I have ended up moderating at multiple communities - now the only 'big' one (needing a fair amount of time put into it) is the fanclub, and much of that is my own doing, being extra things I do on the side of my own volition. The others are small communities that move slowly and take little care aside from the occasional intervention or management. The only other moderately active one I've been at, Gap of Rohan, I've managed to only be mod for a handful of small forums within it, such as writing, poetry and such.

But then... the Gap had one of its two admins have to step down because of other things in her life, and I get the notice - will I be an admin? Argh!!! I love this site, and the people there. It has been a peaceful and fun refuge for me many a time, and I know I could work with the owner/admin very well. It's even a Christian Tolkien forum, something that I treasure... But one more site?

I sat and pulled at my hair for about an hour, then finally let him know that I just don't have the time to be able to care for it as it deserves to be cared for. I ended up offering to be a sort of 'spare tire' admin, who can come in and help when hollered for by email but will most likely not find the problems and fix them all by myself. If I only had more time, sigh... I am at peace with that. I don't know if he'll want that, or decide to go hunting for someone who can be a full-timer, so to speak.

I am reminded of the Brobdingnagian Bards' song, If I Had a Million Ducats - if I had a million hours, all the things I would love to do.

Then I finished writing a chapter of my tale that is getting quite difficult to write as I wind down to the end of it, feeling as if I had just had to wrestle a much larger decision than all that.

Comments

Hello

[faramirgirl.livejournal.com]

I think that you are an amazing person doing all that you do. Being a mother of small children is a job in itself. You have so much of your plate i will not be suprise if you are pulling your hair out.

Re: Hello

[primsong.livejournal.com]

Well, the kids are getting bigger now, and more able to care for their own daily needs, thank goodness - when they were very small I had no life at all outside of caring for them, or at least it felt like it. I have great sympathy for the frustrations that women trying to care for a passel of small children feel if they have other interests that are not 'mommy-friendly.' (like writing!)

I've taken it on as the emergency backup admin, being completely candid with them about my lack of time so there shouldn't be any trouble. I'm going to help him try to find a full-timer.